Not a finale

Part 2: Broken Trust

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"Sabrina"

"Hmmm..."

"Why don't you just make it crystal clear"

"Crystal clear what?"

"That man! He is not just a friend you always meet on the same date in these years"

"If he isn't my friend then what?"

"A boy friend... You must have special feeling toward him".

They both look at each other then pause. Actually they know the whole damn truth, but not sure what they have to do. That moment become awkward. The girl called Sabrina gets into her bedroom, leaves her roommate, Nayla. Has no willing to tell how nice dinner she had that night.

***

There was a time when everything went perfectly. When smiling meant happiness without any pretentious. But this kind of moment just didn't last long. Just like every nice weather day right before an eruption, it went away in a blink.

The truth that you believe, the trust that you hold on, they were gone when you had found a flaw of perfect lies called truth. It opened all rotten life around you. Suddenly, you start questioning everything you know. Are they really they are?

Trust become the most important emotion. Lack of trust led you to anger, overwhelmed the suspicious, then finally, the three-year relationship seemed has no future with all these crazy skeptical thoughts. You would be tired living a life like this.

***

It's never too early to have coffee in this cafe since it opens 24/7. 

Well Sabbi has all day long for me-time after recalling bitter part of her life all night. She should fix that mixed feeling before go back to her endless work life tomorrow. 

First, she have to admit that she treated Nayla wrong last night. Nayla tried to help her get out from the past to head the future. She has through some tough drama before because she couldn't leave her own first love. She just doesn't want Sabbi trapped in stupid past like her. 

But, there are always have buts. Sabbi's past is different from hers. In hers, her boyfriend left with sweet promises, never changed, it was so tempting going back there --- but Sabbie's, she was tossed away like garbage. Pulstop. Three years living in fantasy and when she found a crack, it suddenly wrecked her to cell level. Does she want to be there again? Please, she is pretty sane. 

To be honest, she have no trust to any men and she herself. Well she still trusts her father, her brother and all but not any men that have any romance intention toward her. Her first relationship and her only one ended bad. It ruined her. She couldn't trust her own gut in people. Then it went even worse. A lack of trust is terminal; you can try anything and everything to escape the constriction but the doubt and inability to rebuild something that has eroded is akin to trying to reconstruct the sphinx if it was to disappear to the winds.

What is lost with a lack of trust can never be regained.